Message In A Bottle

Dear Alaina,

I have to apologize to you and your mother. I am sorry and I would like to let you know that I understand now how much you and Victoria meant to me. Thank you for maintaining integrity of Self and of Love as it was years ago when we were once Friends/Lovers.

I remember great journeys and quest amongst the ghosts of Carlsbad and the rolling hills of Vista. Thank you for introducing me to an opening. I am free now due to both you and Victoria.

It is Mercury retrograde at the time I am writing this. Maybe like a message in a bottle this will reach you somehow. I would like to be your friend, and for what it's worth I would like to extend and invitation to you to collect on any promises that I made that when unfulfilled. For example, I am older and my perspective has changed enough...(due to the tortures gifted to me through The Yoga Room and Robert)...enough to ask you to take a trip to the snowy Sierra's with me...again.

Do you remember we wanted to go to Yosemite during the snow? We'll I am older and much less afraid...so let's do that...if anything I owe it to you.

Much as changed, and it was not until I completely moved through my lessons with Robert that I was able, about two months later, to see very clearly what I wanted and what things I destroyed on my path to the creation of certain ambitions.

I am not speaking to you as a different person, but simply more aware. So don't think that I have changed, I still have my ambitions. Just the other day, I received my Ordination from ULC, and I looked at the document with shock only to release that I am very much like your mother. I would like to make peace with her, she deserves it, you deserve it, Ramon and your Father deserve it.

I am a business owner now and I have been ever since I left you. I was ashamed of the situation and my lack of attention to you, and corrupt with the Yoga Room. Leah was the one along with the Sweat Lodge who allowed me to leave...and boy did they chase me and slander my name in Encinitas.

I am a teacher of Yoga and metaphysics, and I actually teach in Encinitas at Yoga Swami. I would like to meet with you sometime...like old times and maybe take a walk on the beach. I also direct a Church of Western Mysticism of which I founded.

I miss the kids...those stinky ferrets. I know you can't tell but I am smiling now. We had some great moments with the Ferrets.

Thank you.

I would like to let the universe take this message and my intention out into the world with all the strength and energy of Love, and manifest a will and a way to let us be friends again.

For your attention and reading this far, I am Greatful.

Sincerely,
T. Ryan Hughes
AKA Trevar

PS: My family says "Hello."

Birthday 23

My Experience in Healing With Your Crystal Grid. On Wednesday July 30th during the afternoon hours, I experienced and was introduced to a new form of healing work that was facilitated by Healer, business partner, and dear friend Christiaan Sun.

I came to visit Christiaan at his home where the healing work took place during a sunny afternoon in Encinitas and was greeted by a most pleasant scene. Christiaan's home is a lower level apartment behind a house located in a lust ranch yard of fruit giving trees. His complex which I assume is shared with like minded individuals is encircled with trees that provide a barrier like energy for privacy and to enclose his salt water pool. I immediately felt the healing energy coming through the trees and plants and of course the location.

So we talked for a couple of minutes about his background and Christiaan explained to me about the time where he was learning from a therapist who developed a form of Yoga (partner yoga or Acrobatic yoga) that allowed practitioners to manipulate their bones, joints, and muscles into place through contact with their partner. Of course as I am a Yoga Instructor, I found this fascinating. We set up the spare room that he has for his healing work where Christiaan had me lie upon a massage table for a neck adjustment.

Wow/Wah! I never knew my neck could make that kind of noise as it replaced itself.

Then we took done the table and set up this interesting grid of copper wire. (When I say interesting I mean it had some provocative energy on it that was truly unique.) Christiaan told me to "carefully" climb onto the copper grid and lay on my back (Savasana). He surrounded me with quartz crystal points in a special configuration such that all the crystals touched the copper.

At this point we took to breathing exercises. Christiaan asked me to breathe deep and rapidly through my mouth (Breath of Fire/Kabalabati) full and fast. This proved to be a challenge because I was sensing some stagnant energy and the way my being works is that more often than not, my gut and solar plexus hold the blocks from relationships, regrets or emotions.

I felt like perhaps I would pass out or vomit but I was able to maintain the breath work. Christiaan asked how I was doing and what I was experiencing as we took a quick brake from the rapid breathing. I expressed that I was feeling hovering sensation of being just above my body.

Christiaan responded with the idea that it was better for me to be absolutely in my body and present to the experience I was having. At this he suggested that I breathe into my body full and slow. For about a minute, I slowly breathed into my body and the presence of "how I was being". Then we began breathing rapidly through the mouth again this time I definitely felt something shifting, such that my solar plexus was dislodging from the spiritual cesspool that it was stewing in as of the last month.

With the tenacious focus of rapid breathing, I was invited to roar and let out primal sounds or what ever came up for me. At first, simple roars and yells began to emerge and shortly thereafter I was receiving stomach pit dry-heaving or "yakking" noises. What happened next was miraculous. Amidst all the noise and movement, I saw myself in the form of an animal (always a Jaguar/Mountain Lion) trapped and attempting with every fiber to escape from a Tar Pit (like one that Mammoths and dinosaurs were subject to).

The amazing thing was, that I (being in this pit) actually surfaced and took a breathe. This breathe was my first breathe in a long time, it felt fresh and new. I immediately understood that all the "yakking" sounds where my way of removing the tar from my lungs and insides as it had seeped in over time and experience with the real world of illustion (maya).

I laid there in my experience upon the copper and crystal grid, tingling and glorious. For the next few minutes, I was left alone in the room where I experienced my beloved senses and an overwhelming sense of gratitude for my breathe above the tar. I experienced tears and freedom and a glimpse of a master teacher/friend whom I am attempting to meet in the month of August (this teacher's name is Max and he told me in my vision to "look and listen").

In my opinion, this type of work is amazing and would benefit all students and individuals who present themselves as Open, Honest, Loving, and Willing. I am still experiencing profound understanding from this experience and it has helped me to let go of addictions after a recent breakup with my partner/lover ( a few days before).

By Trevor Ryan Hughes
Yoga Therapist, Alchemist, Director For Waking Within Co.

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His Held High Into The Sky so Blue, The Ocean Opens Up to Swallow You

Let this be and End to all war and suffering,



"I promise to let the sun in..." Linkin Park




Last night I dreamt I was a wanted man. I dreamt that a woman, an old crone framed me. She had the bones of many sacrifices. I mean her house tas literally stuffed full of bones and parts of people, stashed in the floor boards and walls. I was living there, I believe that I was renting a room. This woman's energy felt like a mother, maybe my mother.





Keep in mind that I just went to Amma ji on Tuesday of the past week.


So something in this dream happened where I was reported to the police in my local home area of Oceanside Ca. I suddenly was at my mom's house with my brother Brennan. I ran into my old room in the Garage where mostly my step sister's stuff now is stored. It was the easiest thing to find two guns (semi automatic handguns) in her room. I grabbed them and stuck them in my pants. Then I ran outside into the driveway where I stold a motorcycle. And took off as I was chased by the police in police cars.



After about a mile, I crashed the motorcycle and I shot several of the officers after me. By this time I was somewhere local to North County San Diego either at a park, resort, or golf course. I often feel that my Grandfather's Ranch is nearby during this part of the dream, so it is likely that I was at Warner Springs Ranch.



There were several bystanders at this resort. I shot a few of the mildly threatening ones. I killed people until I no longer had any bullets left in my semi-automatic handguns. This in my mind in retrospect amounts to about 14 people killed at this point in my dream. I know that I steal a cop car and drive it to a more deserted section of the resort.



Then there is another woman who feels like the last "crone" that framed me but looks different. This woman lives at the back of the ranch. She turns on a television and there are several blaring news reports about finding the killer that I have become but not only am i blamed for what I have done but on this Report I am blamed for all of the Sacrifices and any bones that were found at the "crone's" house.



I feel myself returning to the "real" world and I am very aware of my dreaming. I believe at this point, I reach into the cop car and grab the shotgun (now knowing Trevor as part of this reality or wakeful state) and knowing that I don't know how to use a shotgun or any of the weapons that I have previously employed in this dream. I point the shotgun at this woman who lives at the resort and turned the TV on. The dream begans to fade at I start to feel more and more aware that I am in bed next to my girlfriend in my home in Vista. Before completely coming back I can feel that the woman I was pointing the gun at was amused by my futile fearful and defensive attempt to protect myself.



In reflection, the energy that the Crone generated allowed me to experience fear for safety and to be afraid of Her. I was then possessed my fear, which took my mind out of my body and drove my identity as part of the dream into a hovering observing perspective but it was in and out of body all the time in this dream. I was both experiencing my actions as a murderer and observing them from third person perspective.



Then today while talking to a friend, she mentions that this woman was a DAKINI.



Thus the dream Makes Sense!!



A dakini is a tantric goddess who often appears as a old crone or a woman who presents a darker side of one's self in order for that person to come to learning or enlightening regarding self and universe. I first learned about the Dakini goddesses when I was listening to a lecture on Tantric Buddhist practices several months ago. It seems that I failed to fully embrace that which was offered by the Tantric Dakini goddess, thus resulting in many choatic situations and death and fear.

Now with my conscious existence in this reality I am prepared for another encounter with the Dakini Goddess because I truely acknowledge her as a teacher and guru with an interest in Teaching me. I know that if presented again with the Dakini choice of responsibility (in my dream I may have forgot to mention that the original old crone wanted me to be responsible for the bones of the sacrifices and I refused), that it is a test of fearlessness and I am to move through my own fear as a choice of faith.

Once upon a time I grew up to learn that Fear was the mindkiller and this dream definately signifies that. I choose love and acceptance as a way of living and this dream has shown me clearly how limited my choice was (especially in the face of death and sacrifice). I understand that in order to further my human and spiritual development, I am going to have to walk and "wake" through my fear.

And this too reminds me of something else..."As I walk through the valley and shadow of death..."

Peace and Blessings,

Trevor Ryan Hughes
Waking Within Co
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